Current mood:

contemplative

Free at Last.
I haven't slept yet.  Been busy watching Heroes on NBC.com.  Althoughtemporary, this freedom feels fantastic.  I get to do what I want, whenI want and I plan on taking full advantage of my vacation while I can. It's time to do something for me for once......although I already madeplans to do things for others already -.-......but at least it's alsosomething I want I think, lol.  I don't even know what I'm going to dowith all my free time.  I'm excited.  I hope I don't stop smiling,lol.  Cause right now, I can't stop smiling and I'm feeling quite manic.

Thesunrise is quite beautiful today and this is a brand new day.  I feellike the world is mine for once.  I feel lost in this moment and I wishI could freeze this feeling and moment in time.  As screwed up as I am,and my life is right now, I am completely at ease and completely happyright now.  It feels so very much like I did right after the Diruconcert, although not as intoxicating.  I almost feel like I'm in love,but I know that I am not, nor would it be love for anything or anyone,just merely the feeling itself in my entire being.  I belong for now,and it may just be a fleeting moment, passing in time, but I willtreasure it.

I wish I could keep it, but having a piece of itfor a short amount of time like this is better than never at all.  Iwish for you all to share what I feel, if only for a moment.  We areall connected you know and I cherish the connections I've made, I have,and I will make in the future.  I never want to sever any of myconnections with everything ever again.  My goal is to remain foreverconnected.  I may lapse and I may not hold tight to the bonds I make,but know that as hard to see as they may be, I will still keep thosebonds.  Those who hurt me are always forgiven by me, given time,whether they deserve it or not.

If you ever feel I've driftedaway from any of you, purposely or unconsciously, and you ever want torestrengthen our bonds, don't worry, just talk to me.  I love to listenand I may never be able to say the right thing, or know what to say,but I'll be here.  Whatever happens in this life of mine, I will do mybest to always remain.

~Neko